THE WORLD I KNEW

CHAPTER 2:

LOST AND FOUND

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Getting through the phase of the breakup was eventually a hell at least for me who loved him truly, whose mere heartbeat was for him. Those days of love and pure love, I cannot imagine how he got over it so soon when my one corner of my mind still loved him irrespective of everything he did to me, maybe now I understand why they say love is blind.my mindset seemed even more complicated than ever before, I was happy but then the happiness was forced into me dumping down the stones of sorrow that hit me hard and not natural. I hated him but above all, I still missed him, missed the days when my head was on his shoulders and the times when his lips were on my cheeks. Though my brain knew my life was trapped in the hands of a wrong guy, I struggled a lot to bring my mind come in terms to reality but some places and some things always filled my eyes with tears and one such place was where I asked my friends to come over. Pearls, the famous ice cream parlor in our town, it's the place where I have had countless memories of him and just him..... I went inside and occupied my usual seat and as I closed my eyes for a second, an image of his hand over mine flashed over my eyes, streams of tears streamed down my cheeks and onto my neck. The feeling that I would die for back then seemed to cause a burn in my hand now. My relationship with him had isolated me from everyone. I learned to fake emotions, my smiles, and laughs, everything found a different meaning and in doing so I reckon I didn't just lose my friends but to a large extent lost myself. Yet his flattering words made me helpless in attempting to spend some quality time with my friends but the bitter truth is that someone else has already fallen for those same evil flattering words, all I could feel is sorry for that poor soul as my eyes have no tears left to feel for it nor does my heart has any emotions left for him, yet I found myself in a position where I was confused if I ought to feel for my breakup or infuriate my anger of having been cheated but after all I clearly understood true friends will stick to you forever as it is the only relationship that has no expectations but just love. In my life I can be proud enough I have made some of those. When I called them out, I thought it will be a strong denial but they turned out with so much excitement as if they were readily waiting for the moment. These are all the moments that give you a smoothing Goosebumps, the weird feeling of happiness that cannot be described by words. I strongly believed that if somebody could get me out of these complications and make my life crazily happy that would be these lunatics. After going through a horrible phase of life I cannot ask for a better day than this. We ordered the ice creams of our choice. Akshay chose black current, Anu preferred the butterscotch, Arjun struck up with chocolate and I preferred having a red velvet cake. Arjun mockingly said "Shreya I will kick your *** if you don't pay the bill" facing me I laughed out loud and replied "Add yourself to the bill too so that I could take you along to home" for which he was so quick in saying "if that's the case I will come with you for free”, I smiled to myself as these are some precious words that will stay forever but his follow up expressed his disappointment but he seemed to be concerned that I shouldn't get hurt, he continued "but I don't think you can spare anytime for me buddy". A drop of tears rolled down my cheek and I was quick to wipe it off I promised him and everyone there "guys, come on all my life is going to be with you all" patting on Arjun's shoulders. I felt how much more a buddy like Arjun deserve and what he had got from me in return. I cannot waste any more time for undeserving people rather would spend a lifetime with all my loved ones who deserve everything...as our conversation progressed my thoughts started getting more optimistic and the minute emotions for him seemed to fade away from me. When it was the time for the bill I joked to the man at the counter saying "brother, can you please pack him too" facing Arjun who looked as if he was revived from an African plague, unbelievably thin. The man in counter smiled out and Arjun showed that weird expression which has no standard meaning at all. I said Arjun that I will meet him in his home by evening as he just lived across my home and offered to drop Akshay in his home before I leave. Akshay and I occupied the back seat leaving the front seat vacant and asked the driver to leave. Akshay, who knew nothing other than the fact that I was committed asked me "so how is your guy?” Out of nowhere, tears rolled down my eyes again and Akshay seemed to have no clue about what was happening. With a base tone, I asked Akshay "Ash will you mind me bursting out everything in my mind so that I feel relieved" and he had only two possible options no and absolutely no, he chose the second option.